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30 by 30: Farewell Post

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wave goodbyeWhen I gave up blogging about my weight loss a few years ago, it was because I couldn’t handle the pressure and the scrutiny. I was sensitive and emotional, easily bruised when someone would judge what I ate or how I worked out. The personal involvement that my readers (friends, family and even strangers) had with my daily lifestyle choices became too big a burden for me to bear. So I retired my blog, and went on with my life.

When my friend contacted me about identifying weight loss bloggers for Blisstree, I never envisioned myself as that person. As I’ve mentioned several times, I’ve struggled over the past couple of years with committing myself to my goal and I wasn’t sure I wanted to put myself out there again in such a public forum. As the pieces fell together, the column aligned perfectly with my goal of losing 30 pounds by my 30th birthday. And once I put pen to paper, the words just fell out of me. I joined on as the Blisstree weight loss columnist in January and have loved documenting my journey here.

As I mentioned in April, I was highly unhappy at my job and took the necessary measures to leave it behind me. I have not regretted it for one second. I have been happier, healthier and all together in a better place since starting my new gig. However, with a dream job comes hard work. And my time has been filled to the max lately. To my credit, the crazy nature of my full time events job has helped force me into a structured diet and planned exercise routine, which is slowly but surely making changes to my body. I’m on the right path and I’m excited about it. Unfortunately, I’ve been a TERRIBLE blogger and this is often the first thing to slip through the cracks.

I’m reminded of what Ann Curry said when she left the Today Show. “I wanted to be carry the ball to the finish line, but, man, I did try.” Being a columnist is TOUGH stuff. I can’t throw some shit together and call it a day. It takes work and thought, and most importantly, time. A luxury I don’t have much of these days between work, commuting, travel, exercise and maintaining some semblance of a normal social life. I ultimately just couldn’t do all those things well. Something had to give.

For better or for worse, my weight is a part of everything I do. It’s in every picture, on every date, on every beach trip, on every spin bike, at every happy hour, in every dressing room, at every wedding. I’m so thrilled to have been a part of Blisstree for the past seven months and look forward to continuing my 30 by 30 journey over the next five.

Oh and PS – my total is up to 7 pounds. Only 23 more to go. Thanks for following along, see you on the flip side of thirty.

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